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Yeah I like having some plans lined up too. I already have a hard time choosing something to watch or play, after weed it becomes impossible
nemmybun [she/her, sae/saer]
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Cake day: August 22nd, 2022
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Zoned out to the entirety of Ok Goodnight's The Fox and The Bird while watching butterchurnviz
Highly recommended
I can't remember if we cw weed so I'll do it just in case
weed
Haven't had weed in months, partially to reduce intake but mostly due to a tighter budget the last few months. We got a little extra money for xmas so we decided to treat ourselves. Taking a roughly half-year t-break than going to 42% thc infused sativa is uhhhh kind of a lot. I wish I picked something to watch or do because I'm just kinda bouncing around in my own head and it'd be nice to focus that somewhere else.
I love concept albums and these sound cool. I'm excited! Too eepy tonight tho. I'll give you my thoughts tomorrow if you want em
Oooh that defiant glint in your kitty's eyes
I will check out those albums, thanks!
If you find any lemme know
This is a favorite of mine, I like to headcanon as a trans song
Bolds are my personal favs
- Cellar Darling
- Exploring Birdsong
- The Gathering
- Lesoir
- Magenta
- Ok Goodnight
- Panic Room
- Red Handed Denial
- Reliqa
- Sordid Pink (formerly Destiny Potato)
Also for more retro/retro sounding prog:
- Curved Air
- The Far Meadow
- Rosalie Cunningham
Refreshing my music library like
Prog rock/metal with masc vocalists
Prog rock/metal with fem vocalists
Oh noooooo○○○○◦◦◦◦
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I left social media and never regretted it
Can you rename to 01, 02, 03, etc?
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Yeah I think so too. Maybe that underlying mutual understanding is why she and I get along lol
self harm, suicide
Yesterday I noticed something about my electrolysis tech. She was working on my chin with my head turned towards her. In the strong light from the work lamp, I saw her scars. Hesitation marks running down her wrists and a larger scar down her vein. The sight melted into my subconscious as I was distracted by our chatting and the irritation of the needle.
That evening, my mind wandered back to that memory and I broke down. I cried for the pain she endured to get to this point, for all those who struggled like her and who carry those same scars. For those who took that path and didn't make it through; those I once knew and those I'll never have a chance to. For those crushed under the weight this fucking inhuman patriarchal capitalist system that grinds us down for daring to seek our humanity outside the rigid gender boundaries we were thrust into before we can even fully conceive ourselves.
The emotions are overwhelming. There's melancholy but also fury. I want to make things better but I don't know how. I feel small and utterly powerless within this endless storm of suffering.
It's a small gesture but maybe next week I'll ask her if she wants to hang out some time outside of our appointments. I thought about doing it before because we gel pretty well but didn't because I was worried about the tech/client relationship making that inappropriate or awkward to bring up. But I dunno. I'm probably just overthinking things as usual. She's been more and more friendly every time I see her so I don't think she'd be put off by my asking. Even if she declines, I'm hoping she feels valued. We all deserve that much.
Good: Found a gender affirming voice training place that accepts my insurance, in the process of getting the referral now
Bad: I fucked up in scheduling a follow-up with my psych so now I'll be without meds for a couple weeks
I just finished OddTaxi and I enjoyed it! Good pacing, relatable characters, and heaps of intrigue kept me on the "one more episode" track. Plus it was only 13 episodes which honestly is a good series length since they can't waste any time with fluff. Every scene had purpose.
That ending tho
I hope Odokawa is okay
12 weeks done with electrolysis! That means I'm almost finished, right?
Approval for the actual surgery part of my FFS went through today, all that's left now is to schedule it and start counting down. And if that wasn't amazing enough, I also finally got a refund check I've been expecting (but was told it could have come as late as 2028 lol) and it's more than I thought it was gonna be. Truly a fantastic day.