"People say to me, you are- you really are the Tathagata, the thus gone one, and i have to say, they're right folks. I've awoken, i seen many many things, i really have, i see the world yatha-bhutam, as it is folks, and samsara, the cycle of existence? it's done for alongside that nasty dukkha. the noble eightfold path, it's wonderful, the best path, the only path, don't let them fool you. Cravings? Gone - the nasty Mara doesn't want you to know this - we love the cessation of dukkha and the ending of samsara through moksha, it's wonderful folks, it's the best"
My heart goes out to you