I lose the ability to open most mail once I have processed too many qualia per unit time

also is anyone here familiar with the symptom "going without banking for 4 months" because they locked your web account and so, that was it

so much Potentially Dangerous Mail from agencies, bureaux, and corporations (people [amoral]) 😬

when self-hating people who've learned a little about genetics and evolution pipe up with "why are we even still in the gene pool" sadposts ... this is why. overall, this style of thinking is a net positive to the proliferation of Homo sapiens, and every now and then even a net positive to the people who embody it.

This phenomenon, evoked by Too Much Shit Going On Around Me, is in some sense destroying my life.

I mean, the alternate path I've been on because of sensory sensitivity + autistic inertia has taught me a ton of valuable shit over the past half decade, so if I ever manage to get into a better situation I'll be so much better prepared than I ever was before, now that I understand this stuff... but I'm trading years of my life for the insight, years spent locked in by inertia for a great portion of almost every single day... plus a not-small measure of damage to my health from all the fucking drugs I have to take in order to not go absolutely insane, become completely dysregulated, be constantly highkey suicidal etc in such a scenario.

Also, a tangent, but I really wish there were fewer typos in this paper, this kind of research is utterly critical to getting a better living situation for millions of people on the spectrum, and the typos don't help that. K, done complaining about my pet peeve.

I realized that I do the 'tell everyone' stage because I'm trying to recruit a body double so I'll stick with the project 😅

In my case if I go weeks on end with no break from human presence, I will start hallucinating muffled conversations and fan-like drones etc at all times when there isn't sufficiently loud complex noise, and also I'll see "bugs" constantly in the corner of my vision, like jump scare - there's a spider on the wall, oh wait no there isn't type thing, but 50 times a day. also can get lost parsing sensory input in shared spaces, allowing people to sneak up on me (usually impossible due to the 3D hearing which I can never shut off) and give me a jump scare.

Between this and the manufacturer/DEA created "shortages" it's brutal out there.

Thank you for posting something this personal. These communities (as a former reddit user) have been incredibly helpful to me thru stories just like this. If we can get them self-sustaining on Lemmy they will help a lot of others.

Back to topic, I've not done an extensive pharmacogenetic test, but I did take one to confirm that I'm a CYP2D6 poor metabolizer, which has a huge effect on function of something like 25% of all drugs in existence! It's definitely informed my treatment since getting that information.

Edit: haha, speaking of ADHD I left a shorter version of this comment 2 months ago. the more the merrier..

This is because most therapists (in my loooooong experience) have absolutely zero understanding of executive dysfunction :|

it looks blurry because we're just that exhausted

The really fucked up situation is when you're stuck in this mode to the point of severe burnout because of your environment which you cannot escape in any reasonable amount of time.

It certainly can, though I think there's a low level which I can tolerate for a long time if not already burned out ... assuming I ever get to that state again...

Had to crosspost this one (I'm not OP) because this has literally been destroying my life for 7 years, I'm unemployed and technically homeless (couchsurfing) because of it 🥲

I'm easily mesmerized by televisions and have been my entire life!

Ha!

• you place an overdue library book on the floor in front of the front door. the library book merges seamlessly with the environment. six weeks later, you trip over it on your way out the house to go to the library.

People need to stop agitating for defederation on the basis of politics.

If you want a safe space for one or another "team," start one yourself. I'm not interested in participating on instances which engage in this type of petty behavior.