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  • AcidSmiley [she/her]
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    11 months ago

    The relieve was almost immediate, but that may be psychological. My country has some amount of medical gatekeeping and wait lists, which is pretty stressful when you're in that phase of transition where you're fully aware of your dysphoria, yet can't do anything about it except growing your hair out and shaving three times a day. So when i finally got my first three bottles of gynokadin gel, it was like a crushing weight falling off my shoulders.

    The first changes set in fairly quickly for me, stuff like skin softening, increased empathy and other mood shifts, freezing more easily, intensified sense of smell and so on, i had all of that in the first two weeks, as well as the beginning of the earliest phase of boob growth where your nipples become hypersensitive and you constantly hurt yourself when brushing past door frames. Yes, that's a thing, so much so that it's almost a meme at this point. Ofc HRT takes literal years until you can consider your transition mostly complete, it's an entire puberty and you can expect about 5-10 years until you get the full effects, but i lucked out and got a lot early on, especially when it comes to the whole tittie stuff. I'm still in the phase where it's a constant emotional rollercoaster and where i basically feel like a moody teenage girl, which is taxing at times, but also feels ... incredibly right? I just love being so full of feelings. It's genuinely made me ... not a better person, it's the first time in my life i actually feel like a complete human being. My social life has been turned upside down by this, i'm finally able to interact with people the way i want to, although it's hard to say where the influence of the mood change ends and the different social expectations towards women enter the picture. This goes for a lot of the psychological effects. My mom claims i drive better now, more carefully and without road rage, but is that due to me not being on testosterone or me not being in constant suffering anymore? Probably a good deal of both.

    I could go on, HRT has a lot of subtle and not so subtle effects, but i hope you get the gist of it.