thinking about a friend from high school who i said a lot of eggy shit to and they said a lot back at me. wonder how they're doing?

  • Cromalin [she/her]
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    8 months ago

    there's a lot of things that could be defined as egg behavior. in my case i would constantly be bringing up trans issues and stuff, just because that stuff's really fascinating and they're so brave and can you imagine doing that? that's so crazy. i remember caitlyn jenner coming out and i kept talking to people about her. i would also ask people if they'd thought about what it was like as the other sex, complain about my voice being too deep because it made singing harder (and in choir i insisted i was a bass when i very much was not because my voice sounded so deep to me and it really bothered me), play as female characters in games and stuff. i made a lot of comments like "i wish i was a girl because..." and then say some kind of joke or way i thought life would be easier and everyone would give me weird looks

    other things i did included that were less public: reading stories where boys would turn into girls magically and try and replicate them. i spent probably 2 hours trying to kiss my elbow when i saw that work in a book i read. i thought some fairly mid webcomics and manga were really good because they had magic gender changes in them. i would read tg porn just out of fascination with it, because i couldn't find openly trans writing to obsess over instead. i would shave way more often than was necessary even though i hated doing it. i was fascinated by queerness and gravitated towards it though i couldn't explain why. a little after i came out as trans my mom told me she'd thought i was gay because if that. i mean, i am, but not like she meant

    my experience was obviously not universal though, and there's a wide range of egg behavior out there. if anyone else has things they want to share, whether they're close to my own experience or not, please do

    • EnsignRedshirt [he/him]
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      8 months ago

      Ah, okay. So it could be as straightforward as making statements about wanting to be a different gender, but it could also be how someone engages with news or media, how they talk about their physical or behavioral characteristics, how they relate to gender or queerness, etc. I could totally see being on the other side of that journey/realization and being able to spot when other people are telegraphing their own dysphoria without realizing it.

      • Cromalin [she/her]
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        8 months ago

        yeah. i didn't even touch on all the small stuff i remember from my childhood, from the way i stopped swimming basically as soon as i turned 10 to the clothes i wore to my body language to the way i spoke and a million other tiny things that once you recognize in yourself you can recognize in others