• Des [she/her, they/them]M
    hexbear
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    5 months ago

    this is where i am now. it's the sort of revelation that has finally put me in an "eyes on the prize" mode.

    i can't go back to my twenties. i'm never going to be big titty goth girl i wish i could have been when the egg exploded in my early twenties.

    i saw some pics of older people transitioning before and after. older then me (i'm an elder millennial). one before and after she went from early 50s dad to early 50s mom with bangs with her wife and happy. i'd be happy to just look like somebody's "vaguely goth mom" who also looks like she lifts weights professionally. there's no way HRT is going to vaporize all my muscle mass. even at my most twink when i was younger i still had/have a big frame and the body of a football player

    so i'm going to be a vaguely goth muscle mommy and that is super cool.

    • queermunist she/her@lemmy.ml
      hexbear
      2
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      5 months ago

      I started my transition almost four years ago, in the so-called "late transitioner" age range. At this point I'm just another woman on the factory floor. Yeah my ribcage and shoulders are broad, but that's not actually unusual for blue collar women? I definitely have some dainty coworkers too, but I fit right in with press operators and material handlers. Yeah I look like I work out, and I do, so really I look exactly how I want to 😌