Not related to online interactions but IRL i want to be an actual ghost. A creature living in the walls. Burrow a collection of interconnected tunnels to scuttle around in. Live in an underground bunker never to be found again.
I've been considering getting a really remote and lonely job just so I don't have to deal with being seen in my work hours.
Sometimes i daydream about being able to just slip into a pocket dimension where its just me and walk around the world just looking at things with no one else around. Or even just being a ghost would be rly cool. Just float anywhere and look at stuff
Yeah I think it's about me wishing I could just be a passive observer and not have any obligations (could be related to pathological demand avoidance/autism).
When I think about life after death, I think my "heaven" would be just me existing as a formless consciousness that can float around wherever I feel like, observing things around the world, or even around the galaxy/universe.