Not related to online interactions but IRL i want to be an actual ghost. A creature living in the walls. Burrow a collection of interconnected tunnels to scuttle around in. Live in an underground bunker never to be found again.
I've been considering getting a really remote and lonely job just so I don't have to deal with being seen in my work hours.
Sometimes i daydream about being able to just slip into a pocket dimension where its just me and walk around the world just looking at things with no one else around. Or even just being a ghost would be rly cool. Just float anywhere and look at stuff
Yeah I think it's about me wishing I could just be a passive observer and not have any obligations (could be related to pathological demand avoidance/autism).
When I think about life after death, I think my "heaven" would be just me existing as a formless consciousness that can float around wherever I feel like, observing things around the world, or even around the galaxy/universe.
This mostly just means endless pain and people failing to comprehend me and making it clear they don't want to know me through their actions
Sometimes I really want to be perceived but only in those moments and only by specific people. Otherwise yes it would be great if I could just pass through the world doing my thing enjoying it without needing anyone else to recognize my existence that would be great thank you.
Same, I just need like, one person who understands me and I'll be completely happy to just stay at home forever and never interact with any other human beings ever again.
I saw an article lately that there were not enough lighthouse keepers for remote islands and I pondered for a bit if I should drop everything and apply.
https://bc.ctvnews.ca/want-to-be-lighthouse-keeper-pay-increased-for-b-c-job-posting-1.6688329
One thing to be aware of is that lighthouse keeping is not an email job and is not low skill either. You actually need to be able to work on/fix electrical/mechanical equipment.
I feel like you would be able to while learningon the spot. At least manage to. I didn't mean that this would be easy. But since you would have so much time to give to it, you could learn about it.
That's still a thing? Wonder if any of them have decent Internet
For me it’s a catch 22 because I don’t like to be perceived, but I also like to be around other people
Constantly masking is so exhausting, especially when most environments are so stressful to me. Just let me do my weird fidgets and self-talk in peace.
I think this is a trauma reaction to having a history of being seen negatively and feeling an inability to be seen any other way. Source: me too, I just try to not be in my head about it.
Go to Japan. Apparently it is considered rude to look at people so people all go around not looking at each other. You’ll never feel more alone!
And if you're foreign you'll be perceived even less than the locals because they just generally don't like you.
But if looking is rude, you might get looked at more because they dislike you, right?
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
??? It is not rude to look at people in Japan. Anymore so than it is elsewhere in the world.
Is it socially acceptable to stare at people in the eyes anywhere? I genuinely don't understand.
Stare? What?
Where I’m from people look at each other and say hi as they pass on the sidewalk.
I personally wish I could just be a brain in a jar. I don't want a body or food or interaction. I just want to think.
yeah all this corporeal form maintenance bullshit fuckin sucks. i'm trying to focus and do a thing, whoops my body needs to expel excess fluids, now I have to stop what I'm doing and lose my focus to go to the bathroom. really getting into a project, too bad body needs rest, time for eight hours of get fucked. i don't want this mortal form, just let me be a being of pure energy already
I feel that, I want to do calisthenics in the park nearby, or learn how to rollerblade, but I hate being that conspicuous.
I think I'd feel less awkward living in a bigger city where I can disappear into crowds.
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i want to wear pretty clothes, but i also hate standing out. if i could wear pretty clothes and no one could perceive me that'd be so ideal
This is what I'm saying! I just want to try some stuff out but, noooo, gotta go to the office.
Literally me fr fr. Not just as a physical entity, but as a conscious being with a discernible personality.
I wish I was perceived more. I wish I was a gorgeous 6'6" supermodel who turned heads everywhere I went.
