I love our dog but she often causes me a lot of pain with her extremely loud screech-barking.

Thanks for saying what I wanted to say. I was too afraid to post lol.

Your owlposting brightens my day

I'm AuDHD too and was only half-heartedly reading that thread, I don't know who the podcast lady is or exactly what she was saying, I too thought it was a "food for thought" kind of comment, but now my RSD is triggered and all I can think about is "extreme tailism", "making marginalized people unsafe", and "eat shit losers" from a comment in the gen mega. I gotta be honest and say that it made me cry and I'm still feeling really really hurt by it and I'm not ready to apologize yet, if ever.

I know I take things too personally and it's not about me but my feelings are so so big and I tried every precaution to avoid rejection and I still got slapped over some random upvote. I'm now wondering if it's ever worth posting at all anywhere. I seriously considered deleting my account. Idk what to do about my RSD. Clearly this is an unacceptable reaction to a 24 hour ban but I can't help it.

I got a 24 hour ban for this and I was only half-heatedly reading that thread, I don't even know who the podcast lady is or what she was saying. It triggered my RSD and made me cry. :( Idk what to do about that.

What does kratom feel like? Does it give you the warm fuzzies like painkillers?

I'm surprised there's any schools that are teaching these "lies". I thought they all taught that communism is when no food. It's what I was taught.

Tell Mr. Softie we love him and will all miss him.

Love is the only real reason to live. From what I've learned, apparently everything is made of Love. And every person who has ever had a spiritual experience reports that there is an entity made of pure Love that is behind it all. So at the moment I'm trying to balance this truth with the whole materialist communist thing. I do believe communism would make it much easier for us all to love each other more, without terrible material conditions forcing us to exploit and be exploited. Idk, I'm still thinking about it all.

I can't even walk too long without getting blisters on my feet. How do you run so long without injury?

Which writing is this from? I'm wondering if he talks about what is to be done about that issue.

It indeed is not as bad as it feels. I'm feeling better now but it hurt for like a whole day and I was ruminating about it lol. I hate rejection sensitivity so much. It wasn't like we had an actual fight, I just said my piece and I got frustrated feeling like I was being ignored by the group whenever I tried to explain stuff like that. To which I got: "Well, respectfully, I think you're wrong, and being kind of rude about it too" which hit me like a truck and made me cry. A lot.

This is why I don't post

Also, this is my main friend group so we're talking every day and I said sorry (even though I was right!!!) and now we're back to memes and jokes again.

I tried explaining to my lib friends why it doesn't matter who sits in the captain's chair of the evil empire and they got mad at me and I have rejection sensitivity so it hurts a lot

Researching near death experiences (NDEs) helped me a ton with this. It's anecdotal evidence so it's weak but if you stack it all up from across history and cultures it starts to paint a fuzzy picture. I don't think death means non existence anymore. We don't fully understand what awaits us but from what little I've heard, it's a very nice place we go to.

basically the only way I have made friends in my life is spotting the other weirdos and being like hiiii i'm weird too let's be friends :)

and it's worked so far lol

Then why does it taste like soap :(

Being sick and somewhat sedated by medicine is enough to be sort of "drunk" and make typos. :P

But in terms of like, getting actually high, yeah you can't just get codeine but there's cough medicine that's like, pure DXM and people use it as a deliriant.

I actually thought you might have been high on cold medicine again lmao