active networking is the 10th circle of hell,never in my life have I felt so actively disgusted with myself in a social context. how do you do this without the urge to or how do you tamp down that urge because oh my god I cannot stomach it, it feels so fucking slimy to do. i can't even do it at events where the sole purpose is networking, my dad pressed me into one and I bailed 15 minutes in after hovering around, it feels so utterly degrading and gross
I have a hard enough time socializing in general. Socializing to try and get a job?![yikes-1 yikes-1](https://www.hexbear.net/pictrs/image/10d831e7-162b-4260-9b1d-244360440db4.png)
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