BIGGER AND MORE PRIDEFUL THAN EVER BEFORE trans-ferret trans-hydra

  • BountifulEggnog [they/them]
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    2 days ago
    sh feelings, dysphoria (don't read if easily sad)

    sorry I try not to post about it too much because I'm not actually doing it and bringing it up brings a lot of sad vibes to the thread but whatever, I want to get this off my chest.

    I keep having really strong sh urges, like I haven't felt in a long time (maybe 2-3 years). Its so concentrated on my left arm and I know its from my general dysphoria. I hate my body so much and its just manifesting as this urge to hurt myself and its so hard. Its such a strong feeling. And its not even just for pain like it usually is, but I want to bleed too. Why is this my burden. I feel weak. The urge just keeps running through my mind. It keeps getting worse. My old scars feel like needles.

    I am currently safe however.