And it’s hitting as hard as it probably could right now. Does anyone else wish they could just live life in a vacuum, their decisions completely unperceived
And it’s hitting as hard as it probably could right now. Does anyone else wish they could just live life in a vacuum, their decisions completely unperceived
lol yeah me too
I realized recently, had almost an epiphany, that I almost never do or say what I want, but only ever what I think I should. It becomes a problem in writing. I've had to write essays and other things where I've agonized over wording for hours and allowed my inner self-critic to torture itself over what kind of thing I should write, what kind of tone, wording, structure, all that. With writing, there are so many endless ways to write a sentence or a paragraph or an essay, that it becomes a bottomless problem to reason your way to the right one. At some point it has to be an expression of you, but if your internal self-critic is louder than you are then it can be a challenge.
This is me, you've quite literally put into words my experience. Best of luck and hope things are better for you.
yeah dude, you too! I wish you luck with it. I'll tell you that, in the brief moments when I manage to speak and act how I want to and not how I think I should, it feels very exposed, like I'll get ridiculed at any moment. I think I've been trying to fit in my whole life. It's to the point where, most of the time, I don't even know how I want to speak and act. I have to consciously stop myself from acting out of habit. It will take practice. I'm treating it like physical therapy, like learning how to walk again after nerve damage.
Everything is the Abilene Paradox.