I always wanted to be a screenwriter. Didn't work out so now I stock shelves lol.
I dreamt about
- Having fulfilling social relations
- Getting a good education
- Reasonable middle class financial security
But then mental health happened and fucked those up and left me as a tired, lonely and anxious mess with a hopeless debt.
:sadness:
I had a degree that I couldn't finish because I ran out of money from not working full time.
I never had any grand dreams. Seriously none. I just wanted to be able to live and not worry about money - which sometimes is possible.
Now that I'm old however I kind of wish I had a kid... Its not really too late but its kinda getting there. Never wanted them before but yeah. Apparently thats something that happens when you get old.
I feel this one. In my teens and twenties the thought of having a kid terrified me, probably because I knew a lot of people who had kids waaaaaay before they were ready.
Now a lot of times I wonder who's going to bury me.
I didn't really "get it" til I watched my buddy who is a screwup like me raise his kid. That kid is absolutely amazing and the thought of raising a little communist is just too cool lol.
Hmm I get what you're saying, but I always have to think about Pete buttichug and how his gramsci scholar dad probably had high hopes
I have kids and I'm trying to raise them into communists. They're still young so we have to see how they turn out. Although I don't know what happened with Pete and Kamala in their childhood, my guess is that their parents did not practice their ideals at home. You can't preach the democracy of every workplace around the world while being an authoritarian in your house. But there's also a subjective dice roll that comes with everything as well. Maybe their parents did a great job and Pete and Kamala just suck.
I am already a temptress to any passing sailor. So I am halfway there.
What makes you think it's too late??
I've been a part of my local "scene" for quite a long time now, pre-covid at least. Some cats I jam with are 60-70 years old, hilarious, talented, always bringing weed. Idk what my point is other than I don't think you CAN be too old.
If you're no good at music, you can either practice and get good on your own at home, or you can eventually find people to collaborate with on a similar level as you. Or just make beats on drum machines / produce on the computer, then you don't have to be as 'technically' good, you just need good ideas.
Reply or DM me if you want any advice!!
Was going to be a college professor, but as I finished my BFA, I had to ask myself if I could afford going go grad school next. Now a few years later, i’ve not worked on my portfolio, nor dedicated myself to finding a suitable school. Instead it’s work and hobbies so i dont go mad.
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Veterinarian. I really liked working with animals medically and in a rehab capacity, but rehab breaks you if you love animals. So many of the candidates are ones that can't be re-released and are too wild or injured to keep. Euthanasia, even when it's the ethical option and the highest mercy you can give, is such a miserable experience.
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Cultural anthropologist. Before the 2008 recession I just wanted to fuck off to some remote corner of the planet and do field studies. My parents refused to let me study it in the UK and at the time I was trying to strike out on my own so I didn't have the money to study it in the US. Then the recession hit and that STEM-humanities split became a very hot culture war. Even if I had gone into massive debt to get one of the advanced degrees that actually lets you do something in anthropology, at best I'd be any other publish-or-perish academic making adjunct wages.
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Ethnobotanist. I really like the idea of Terrence McKenna without the woo. Working with psychedelics in a formal way as a materialist would be very interesting, but like anthropology you're desperately competing for a handful of positions that pay a living wage.
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Trauma doc/nurse. Emergency medicine is my shit. I'm completely at peace and in my element if there's a polytrauma to treat. The ward, fire stations, and ambulances/helicopters are all such amazing work environments that I would stick around after shifts. Then I worked at a really poorly run hospital with 40% manning, 14 medics covering 36 positions in that ward. If the hours, 80+ per week, didn't kill you then the nature of the work did. You'd work a critical incident and then not even have the manpower to cover for a debriefing, going right back into the next room as they wheeled the patient out of the last one. I could do everything except for kids. I had signed up to treat marines because they volunteer to be injured, instead I got an endless stream of them and their wives hurting or killing their kids, kids committing suicide, and adult cases where the scene would be full of all of their screaming kids. Even hiking around them is now very iffy for me.
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doctor, but brain no work
artist but bad at drawing cuz i dont practice consistently
pro baseball player for a while in HS because i was somewhat competent and baseball money is WILD but instead i liked eating food and staying at home instead of going to boring baseball pratice
theres a lot honestly lol
I always considered going for graduate school but me being trans and my parents not being supportive has taken a big toll on my mental health.
I wanted to be a teacher, but the barriers to becoming one (even with an unrelated degree) were too much when I was working two part time jobs. Now I'm only working one job and have the free time, but my mental health is shit, so no teaching for Kanna.
I hope your mental health improves! And I hope you find a way into teaching. Every teacher I know says its simultaneously the most stressful and most fulfilling job you can have.
Buying a house. I always just wanted a little house with a garden but seeing as prices do nothing but rise in the UK and I can barely get by month-to-month with rent and food there's no chance of me being able to get together a deposit. Any savings I do get would go towards transitioning first anyway but even that looks less and less likely as the years go by and I'm still no closer to it.
UK house prices are insane. £300K+ for a single bedroom flat in a reasonable area in London. I want to move out the country.
