Word. There's just so, so, so much information. And until you've been in it for a long time you don't even have a clue how much there is you don't know, how much of what you "know" is rank propaganda. And I have huge advantages; I was lucky enough to go to uni and have genuine curmudgeonly old-school marxist professors and anti-capitalist professors who opened my eyes to all kinds of weird shit I had no idea about. And it still took me a long, long, long time to become a frothing unhinged big spoon commie. Like I didn't really break with America until the al-Awlaki assassination, despite all the bullshit that came before that.