My experience with therapists has been pretty negative. Mental health is good and necessary, but my personal time spent with therapists hasn't produced anything positive. My last one was almost singularly focused on my job, even telling me I should try getting to work on time more often, since that would have a positive impact on my thoughts. She would not accept that my hatred of my workplace came from any sort of wider hatred of private business apparatuses in general, but rather, tried to get me to change how I thought about them. I quote "Try to imagine your boss is doing a service for you by letting you work there." Yeah, no. She also never seemed to understand that I hate how little time I have to do anything outside of work. She suggested a few times that having just enough time to get home, eat, bathe, sleep, then start again was a perfectly fine life to have.

I feel at this point my brain is too scrambled to do anything about becoming a well-adjusted individual unless I get something intensive. My last therapist did suggest medication for anxiety, but I've been on it for six months without any real progress, unless who I am now is supposed to be the progress. I got diagnosed with anxiety by a neurologist, which might be the problem? I don't know. I hate interacting with the medical system in general. Hate filling out forms. Hate all this