For context, I'm gender fluid, and idk if anything I'm mentioning has do with that. Sometimes I'm desperate to express more masculinity, but it isn't an emergency level of wanting to experience a different body.
I think it's mostly a power fantasy to do with physical autonomy. With strength, men are generally bigger and stronger. There's also some sex fantasies of having a dick along with my vagina, one that can appear exclusively for sex and disappear when I stop.
Sometimes I fume over how I'll never be strong enough to throw a car. I love the idea of looking like Arnold Schwarzenegger when he was on steroids and having fun doing things only incredibly buff people can do. I personally am not turned on by the body type he had, but I'd love to have and use it. It seems like a wonderful level of autonomy.
Being big makes finding clothes that fit a huge pain in the ass
Just putting it out there
You can attain a lot of musculature and have a body builder aesthetic even without xy chromosomes! It's hard work, I've heard T helps. Even with PEDs and whatever people take, it still takes a lot of discipline. There's also a lot if body fat percentage lowering required and when you see Ahnold or whoever in movies, that's just THAT day and they're usually dehydrated and shit.
