IDFK what the hell I am.
I believe communism can only be achieved through revolution, and that the proletariat will need to take over and control the state to protect itself from sabotage from capitalist interests at least until global communism is achieved and the infrastructure to support a worldwide mutualist society has been established, at which point the state could be dissolved.
I'm not a very good leftist, I don't even know what I am
I couldn't agree more. I got into all this through the bread book, and if pressed I still generally call myself an anarchist. But I don't think this divide matters at all. I'm a communist first and foremost, and I want to work with whoever's going to advance us closer to a communist society.