Albeit super reductive
It seems like all of your feelings really do come down to chemicals in your brain (which are highly influenced by outside factors obviously). Fuck me, now I’m realizing all of my wants/desires are just certain feelings that may or may not be influenced by how others perceive me (i.e. social status)
I did not need this realization 😀 someone please tell me I am wrong
To optimise having lots of children and seeing them survive. The optimisation is not something serving us living as fulfilled individuals.
I don’t see your point. Of course you’re not optimized to be fulfilled in life lol. Fulfillment is an unnecessary feature to keep us alive. I don’t feel fulfilled, but I don’t care whether my monkey brain was born to want to reproduce or become a great man of history, my goals and desires are more complex than whatever primal instinct I was born with.
The inherent features or reasons are largely irrelevant. If OP is distraught because they feel like their thoughts are not their own, they should take solace in knowing that their body automates many things for them based on what it thinks it’s correct. That’s completely normal. Our job is to decide whether we agree with our body’s decision, or go against the grain and pursue something else.
I just see “the chemicals” as a GPS. I follow its directions for the most part, but sometimes I think I know a better way and decide to make a turn in spite of its directions. If I keep doing it, the GPS will have to adapt to my new situation and we keep doing this until the car dies, I reach my destination, or I deviate to a different stop.
This just seems like a headier way of saying "try not being sad"
It's not good that your brain is governed by chemicals because it automates breathing, it's good that your brain is governed by chemicals because that means a lot of issues can be remediated or resolved with chemicals (which are in no short supply in industrial society).
That's not a solution for environmental and systemic issues that lead to those problems, but at least there's some possibility to ease that injury now.
ok lol. there's no point in discussing this further.
???? What are you on about lol. This is literally what I'm saying - OP is distraught because they don't believe they're in control of their body; I say that's completely normal because our bodies do things without us being conscious of it; I then say that despite this automation, we still have the ability to deviate from our thoughts and bodies to serve our goals. You're literally just disagreeing with me then rewording what I'm saying as a rebuttal.
And who said anything about anything being a solution for environmental or systemic issues? I said despite external factors influencing our subconscious, most of us still retain the ability to choose to overcome or go along with that influence - that's not the same as "stop being sad." Making conscious decisions in spite of what your body is used to doesn't guarantee anything, happiness or sadness, hence my GPS analogy - you might think you know a better way, but you could end up nowhere, but the GPS will still adapt to that decision and now you either choose to follow that GPS or keep going your own way.
My post was not meant to "fix" OP's deeper problems. It was meant to comfort them so they know that our emotions, thoughts, desires, etc. occurring without us knowing why is completely normal and nothing to be ashamed about.