I was all into electoralism up until the 1-2 punch of Corbyn and Bernie getting screwed (and just straight up losing) within the span of 2 months. From there I thought electoralism still had it's place but was thinking more about how we'll never get to "vote" for socialism, and started leaning towards being an ML. And then recently, I'm just really down on the hope for any sort of internal change within the imperial core. I think change is going to have to be forced upon the global north by the global south. And even though Iive in the US, I just feel more and more disconnected from this place. I find I'm way more interested in what's going on in places like Cuba, China, Good Korea, Peru, Bolivia, India, etc. I find myself not even really caring about US politics except for when it comes to issues of foreign policy.
And in my observation, it feels like a lot of comrades here seem to be following this trajectory.
Of course as I move along this path, I still don't seem to have a really good feel on what I'm supposed to do, you know?
Exactly this. I don't disagree that imperial core workers benefit from the exploitation of the global south and even that this is an obstacle to revolution, but the third worldist argument that this is the reason revolution isn't happening in the imperial core never made sense to me. First because most workers in the first world are not educated on the basic principles of socialism, let alone imperialism, unequal exchange and all that;* and second because like you said revolution isn't happening in the third world either. It seems to me third worldists dismiss the role of capitalist ideological hegemony and anti-communist propaganda too much.
*In fact, to the extent that people are aware of these things they see them as bad. Most people who know about the sweatshops and the child labor that make our clothes and phones think it's fucked up, they just don't see it as something they have the power to fix