I'm still young enough where the major onset Covid effects won't affect me too bad, where I'm fearful is what's going to happen to be later down the line, when I'm like 60; bad lungs, balding, will I go sterile, some werid fucked up shit behold my wildest dreams? fuck if I know, hoping for a quick and speedy climate heat death :agony-mescaline:
the earth is definitely trying to get rid of us lol
I know this is anti-Marxist but I got into idealism as a framework for metaphysics and to cope with impending climate collapse I like to tell myself that this Earth is essentially kind of like a videogame for whatever weird spiritual force underlies material reality and humanity was sort of flawed from the start and this particular instance of material experience is just slated to end to clear the way for something new
there's literally zero evidence that we're not just meat robots
Idealism is pretty cool. It would not entirely surprise me if it turned out to be true, supposedly (SUPPOSEDLY) at the current boundaries of physics shit gets weird enough that it's shaking a lot of the physicalist view of reality. Ever since I started reading about it I started having crazy ass dreams and I feel like weirdly disconnected from things sometimes, though that might be related to my mental problems more than anything. I had a really bad spat of death anxiety a while ago and at one point I was sitting in my living room and I got so freaked out I suddenly kinda felt everything zoom out and I felt this weird sensation of being an alien observer to this hyperdream (probably what really bad dissociation feels like) and it was so weird
At the end of the day I tend to think that there is no God and this is all meaningless but baseline reality is already so fucking weird I really feel like there's got to be something more to it than just bits of matter
There are a couple paradoxes of our existence as we know it that remain no matter how well we model the universe. And in some cases, as our models get better, we run into more things that we're at a loss to explain.
I think we'd be a lot better off if we got a lot more comfortable saying "I Don't Know" to things, and leaving room in our worldview for the unknown, instead of insisting that we can make up a story that explains everything. Having everything explained can be quite burdensome.
Both were created by capitalism (industrial agriculture and urbanization bring humans into closer contact with animals, increasing instances of zoonotic diseases), its not earth that's trying to kill us, it's capitalism.
My mom's cousins went bald young. They were about 10 and 15 years older than me. And I look a lot like them. When I was a kid and a teenager I thought it was sort of hilarious that they wore baseball caps to hide their baldness. It wasn't quite so funny once I noticed my hair thinning a bit in my early 20s.
I'm still young enough where the major onset Covid effects won't affect me too bad, where I'm fearful is what's going to happen to be later down the line, when I'm like 60; bad lungs, balding, will I go sterile, some werid fucked up shit behold my wildest dreams? fuck if I know, hoping for a quick and speedy climate heat death :agony-mescaline:
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whether climate death or pandemic death, the earth is definitely trying to get rid of us lol
I know this is anti-Marxist but I got into idealism as a framework for metaphysics and to cope with impending climate collapse I like to tell myself that this Earth is essentially kind of like a videogame for whatever weird spiritual force underlies material reality and humanity was sort of flawed from the start and this particular instance of material experience is just slated to end to clear the way for something new
there's literally zero evidence that we're not just meat robotsi mean i was just joking. but the only constant is change.
This is my shit.
We might ultimately be dreams, but may your dream be ever resonant and lucid.
Idealism is pretty cool. It would not entirely surprise me if it turned out to be true, supposedly (SUPPOSEDLY) at the current boundaries of physics shit gets weird enough that it's shaking a lot of the physicalist view of reality. Ever since I started reading about it I started having crazy ass dreams and I feel like weirdly disconnected from things sometimes, though that might be related to my mental problems more than anything. I had a really bad spat of death anxiety a while ago and at one point I was sitting in my living room and I got so freaked out I suddenly kinda felt everything zoom out and I felt this weird sensation of being an alien observer to this hyperdream (probably what really bad dissociation feels like) and it was so weird
At the end of the day I tend to think that there is no God and this is all meaningless but baseline reality is already so fucking weird I really feel like there's got to be something more to it than just bits of matter
You might like this too.
https://thebaffler.com/salvos/whats-the-point-if-we-cant-have-fun
There are a couple paradoxes of our existence as we know it that remain no matter how well we model the universe. And in some cases, as our models get better, we run into more things that we're at a loss to explain.
I think we'd be a lot better off if we got a lot more comfortable saying "I Don't Know" to things, and leaving room in our worldview for the unknown, instead of insisting that we can make up a story that explains everything. Having everything explained can be quite burdensome.
Both were created by capitalism (industrial agriculture and urbanization bring humans into closer contact with animals, increasing instances of zoonotic diseases), its not earth that's trying to kill us, it's capitalism.
I should have been so lucky. My hair was thinning in my 20s. And when I was in my early 30s - I started shaving my head.
Family genes are on my side, nearly everyone on my dads side kept a full head of hair well into thier retirement.
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My mom's cousins went bald young. They were about 10 and 15 years older than me. And I look a lot like them. When I was a kid and a teenager I thought it was sort of hilarious that they wore baseball caps to hide their baldness. It wasn't quite so funny once I noticed my hair thinning a bit in my early 20s.
Not all revoltuionaries need a full head of hair like good guy castro :Fidel-deke: after all lenin was bald :lenin-cat: :shrug-outta-hecks:
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Hope it's none of those things you don't want, comrade :meow-hug: