I can’t fucking believe the entirety of America was out for blood because it was one of the first major times foreign policy finally backlashes. So now we have to have endless and secret wars carried about by troops, special forces, and private mercenaries. We have our greedy murderous tentacles in everything and everywhere and there is no end in sight.
We fucking slaughter people. We literally killed an aid workers and his fucking children And all we can give is a “oh I’m sorry”. We have no reason to be anywhere except for extracting resources and trying to keep a population from self determination and receiving the value of their own countries resources. But oh we gotta love the fucking troops because they are somehow defending our freedoms thousands of miles away in countries most dumb fuck Americans can not point to on a globe even with the names on them.
I fucking hate that I was a part of this and helped continue this, but how do others not realize the military industrial complex and revolving door of generals in and out of service, news interviews, and being on boards of fucking military contract corporations.
Fuck this country. Fuck what it stands for. Death to America.
Do not be afraid, child. There are no countries, only humanity. You will not be held responsible for the sins of your tyrants and false kings.
This is just something I constantly struggle with. How do I treat my service? I’m not proud of it in the same sense that other psychos are, but it was a major part of my life. It shaped who I am joining right after high school. I try to use it to explain to people why we shouldn’t do this. Why we shouldn’t praise troops or have a defense budget that’s $782 billion. But being in such a conservative area in the country, it individually plays to my personal advantage to use my service sometimes. People around me respect it and are in awe sometimes, but I can’t just tell them the military is bad. They won’t understand because they don’t have the same experiences or insight that I do to the war machine.
I can’t say I would take it all back because then I would not know what I do now, but the pain knowing I contributed to the oppression and domination of people in Africa and the Middle East is almost too much to bear, and has taken me to the brink of ending it several times.
On behalf of everyone here, please don’t. You’re more than the mistakes of your past. High school seniors are pretty well known for being morons who make shitty decisions they don’t understand the consequences of.
Just try to use this experience to improve the world around you.
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I appreciate it comrade. It’s an internal struggle that isn’t easily communicate. Comrades on the left who are so anti military sometimes can’t look past it, and no one with the military experience will understand it from a Marxist-Leninist perspective. It leaves me in a weird outlier where I feel cut off from so many different groups.
All that being said, I’m still here currently. So that’s at least something.
You are the product of your environment and the fact that you've escaped that, and are trying to do good with what you have learned, makes you a very important and brave person.