This week I was posting something about post World War 2 and how multiple imperialist powers gave up their overseas holdings, and I very nearly typed about how all of these countries just voluntarily did it. But I was posting about France and Algeria, so I knew that couldn't be true, so I looked up the process of decolonization and of course I had basically just about regurgitated some weak ass History Channel noble white folk nonsense about how the magnanimous West just let Asia and Africa roam free after WW2.
What stupid shit have you caught yourself doing or saying recently?
still trying to deal with the neverending anxiety. like i transitioned and i think my anxiety got worse.
the constant bombardment of what the 'ideal' woman looks like. ive been told i look like im cis / like a model, and it really bothers me because then it makes me compare to models and shit which is obviously unhealthy because i dont have a team of people making me look nice. ive yet to get used to the creepy looks and comments. ive been groped in public before, actually around six times, had drunk dudes follow me and friends around. weird shit like that. makes me very nervous to go outside, though i do know its dumb because most of the time people are very nice so idk.
i also hate how i get in cycles of neverending anxiety and beating myself up. like if i have an anxious breakdown and dont leave the place for weeks and drop everything, i get in a cycle of how useless i am by capitalist standards and i should be out doing xyz, getting surgeries, or getting a house with that money. you know, things that should be a given in any just society.
Oof. Yeah I imagine transitioning both heightens your anxiety while relieving gender dysphoria so that's its own kick in the face.
yeeeep