But that’s getting around the point, I’ve tried a lot over the course of my life to do what you’re saying, and it honestly has never resulted in anything other than me making fuckin problems for myself, or otherwise just not measuring up to what I need to be to get along as a person in the world.

So I find it simply more agreeable for everybody to live as if I’m not.

I think therapy will help with this way more than sex would. Genuinely, therapy has helped me a lot with my own socialization and anxiety issues, and I highly recommend it if you can access it for most things. It can also make it easier to pursue relationships if you're not always sort of fighting with yourself, so to speak.

If you're insistent on the sex, literally just find one of the many hookup subreddits or a hookup app in accordance with your sexual preferences, and just message people and try to hit it off. Most people are pretty friendly, in my experience.