Haven’t been diagnosed with anything, probs autistic or something considering how much I resonate with this comm BUT I can very easily get myself in and out of “the zone” with enough mental energy. As a result, kinda makes it hard to determine what my actual interests are. Ofc there’s a people pleaser angle to it all, but there’s also the the side where I just like learning new shit, keeping it in my brain for a few seconds and moving on to the next thing 🥴
Sometimes for me, I make the assumption that I'll lose or forget whatever I have in front of me, so I'll dedicate myself to learning about it or appreciating it unless I know it's safe.
It means I hoard data and information and get really anxious about not finding things online I could access before.
I get afraid I'll lose access to something, so I'll shift gears depending on my access. Sometimes I'll get books and games without using them and it feels bad, but I also feel safe to return to it.
That said, when I do see a new thing, I can end up focusing on the new thing like it's gonna disappear at any moment.