Haven’t been diagnosed with anything, probs autistic or something considering how much I resonate with this comm BUT I can very easily get myself in and out of “the zone” with enough mental energy. As a result, kinda makes it hard to determine what my actual interests are. Ofc there’s a people pleaser angle to it all, but there’s also the the side where I just like learning new shit, keeping it in my brain for a few seconds and moving on to the next thing 🥴
The last sentence is classic adhd but I can't say I vibe with the rest, I fucking wish I had some control over the flow state lol
Can you always pick what you are getting yourself in the zone about? Like can you get really into doing the most pressing, urgent and important task of your day, and then move on to other urgent, important tasks? Can you spend extended time on organizational tasks?
I (ADHD) can be extremely interested in a subject and really committed to learning and growing, as long as it isn't what I should be doing in order to like get my bills paid or maintain a calendar. As a result I'm really well read, I can play multiple instruments, I can code, draw and paint, pretty good at math; but I was behind for much of my life and not like professionally successful because I could focus on just about anything else other than like paying bills or going to bed at a reasonable time. All this other shit compounded and I used to constantly screw myself over in like 50 different ways before I started to get treatment. But I also have a lot in common with certain HF autistic people and feel validated by the fact that they are interested in things. There's some overlap between autism and ADHD, depending on how the symptoms of the autistic individual are clustered.
Can you always pick what you are getting yourself in the zone about? Like can you get really into doing the most pressing, urgent and important task of your day, and then move on to other urgent, important tasks?
Oooooh no lol I was just referring to jumping around from my historic likes/dislikes and things that I have been able to tolerate in the past.
My living condition is quite awful, I have clothes that have been piling up for years, a very disorganized work area, messy rooms, etc
But it’s probably the neatest messy can get imo, everything is piled together according to some type of criteria
Sometimes for me, I make the assumption that I'll lose or forget whatever I have in front of me, so I'll dedicate myself to learning about it or appreciating it unless I know it's safe.
It means I hoard data and information and get really anxious about not finding things online I could access before.
I get afraid I'll lose access to something, so I'll shift gears depending on my access. Sometimes I'll get books and games without using them and it feels bad, but I also feel safe to return to it.
That said, when I do see a new thing, I can end up focusing on the new thing like it's gonna disappear at any moment.
If your diet and exercise and everything is on point it will be much easier to decipher what's happening based off what's in your head,
There's a "glow" of focus that kicks in when I eat healthy food after I let people make me go out to eat (makes me feel bad, I go home, consume chemically perfect food, I am renewed) Gives me super strength like popeye. Not kidding.
