Which is weird for me because I don't often remember my dreams.
The first one was two nights ago and involved me visiting some Greek-looking marble temple in a city. There were lots of tourists around. The temple was white and had rows of big white marble Japanese Oni statues at the entrance and you could sort of see that there were rows of them down to a dimly lit, huge white marble statue of Zeus at the back of the temple. I was intimidated by the place for some reason.
There was a tour group of some kind hanging around the entrance, they were all romantic couples and I remember the tour guide saying that only couples were allowed in. So the couples were going in and out of the temple laughing and doing touristy stuff while I had to stay outside because I wasn't in a couple. Then I woke up.
And then I had another vivid dream last night that I was hanging out with these random people at their big house during a party and some weeb guy decided we were friends and started telling me how to act "If we're going to be friends you'll need to cut out that narcissism."
I remember saying incredulously saying "Narcissism?" but then we just hung out and played Streets of Rage. While I sat there wondering how I'd been roped into this friendship. At one point his mom arrived and asked me to clean their toilets.
WTF
Have you guys ever had weird dreams?
I absolutely love discussing dreams and thinking about them. I always have these nondescript dreams that just feel like a jumble of images when I wake up, and then I forget them as the day goes by. Sometimes I do remember some of them, though. A notable one happened this time when I had this bipolar hypomania crush on a girl, which lasted for an alarming amount of time. I dreamed she was driving me somewhere on a street which was only for buses. Then she suddenly disappeared, The Leftovers-style, and the car just kept on moving for a few moments before stopping. And that's it. I woke up and spent the whole day trying to suss out what that meant.
It was actually a surprisingly literal kind of symbolism, to be honest. She often did this thing where we would go out, she would vanish afterwards and then say hello months later and we'd go out maybe once or twice a year. It had been going on for about three years at that point. Thing is, I was crazy about her, happily letting her drive me around, then she would disappear and leave me hanging, in a moving car without a driver, so to speak. Also, in a bus lane, recognizing that this shit shouldn't be happening. I discussed this with my therapist and some time later I started feeling better and letting go of her. We still meet every now and then, but my crush on her is gone.
My point is that, in my view, understanding what a dream means involves realizing that each image, each element, works as a symbol. Sometimes you have to dig deeper to understand what's going on, but it's always a representation of the thing, rather than the thing itself. Why is it a Greek temple? Why were there tourists? Why white? Why was the temple Greek but the statues Japanese? And how does all that relate to being in a romantic couple? It's all very personal and it's only your and maybe your therapist's job to decode all that, but I feel there's meaning even in the smallest details. It's all a weirdly deliberate way that your brain has to tell you "hey look what's going on in here". But I might be wrong.
Also, I don't know how to explain the dream I had a couple nights ago where my friend (who happened to have David Mitchell's face, but I knew it was my friend) took a shit in my living room. He asked me "hey, can I take a shit here?" and I laughed it off like "haha yeah right whatever" and he just dropped trou and shat in my goddamn living room. What the fuck
Lmao
I have a hunch. Someone I'm close to just got into a relationship recently and I found myself a little jealous of their happiness. They seem so right for each other. Part of me wants what they have, but another part of me is very daunted by the idea of romantic relationships. I'm very scared of being betrayed and stuck in a controlling relationship that I can't get out of (I tend to associate religion with cults and being trapped in an abusive dynamic. Which might explain Zeus, not sure about the Oni, maybe because they're violent? They're both very stereotypically masculine figures.) The couples leaving me behind might be me worrying that I'm going to be left alone if I don't commit to anyone. I don't want a romantic relationship but at the same time I do. I don't really know what I want in that aspect of my life.
Classic hedgehogs dilemma stuff.
Sorry if thats TMI lol
Nah that sounds cool. Also, hedgehog's dilemma?
That kind of analysis is exactly what I do when I have a dream that sounds significant, lol I think it's very fun and scratches that Freud- / Jung- / Lacanian itch I sometimes get. I should have studied psychology rather than language teaching at college. I would be doing this kind of fun discussion for money, and it would be much more money than what I earn lmao