Oh ok, I hear you. First of all, I'm glad to hear you've found something that works for you to an extent, both as far as therapy and medication. I'm still trying to find the right combination without much success. I'm actually on an opioid medication in part to help with the severe depression but I was not surprised when it started causing more problems than helping, so I'm trying to taper off of it now. While it did wonders during the honeymoon phase, I would strongly recommend against it for most others. Just sayin', I get it.