but from the perspective shown by the trolley problem or whatever, i am basically killing people when i choose to do something selfish instead of helping them not die. so the 35000 children dying every day are at least partially my fault. i could save dozens of them from early childhood diseases just by sending enough money for medicine to survive. i basically killed a dozen people today
on second thought this is probably true, but it also implies that everyone on the planet has probably "killed" someone at least a hundred times (especially if we count choosing to eat to not starve instead of giving) so im not sure if any of this matters. moral nihilism might be it at that point
im sorry i said the sociopath thing. i can see now i have no right to have said that
You're not the same poster as the person I used to say "That sounds like OCD, maybe see a therapist" to, right? Because, damn, the intensity of focus you have on this really reminds me of my own struggles with moral OCD.
i didn't want to live spending my entire life either worrying about not doing enough or forcing myself to give up everything i enjoy to do more. but i realize now that is counterrevolutionary and wrong. i am angry. i dont want to go into my emotions around this too much because it feels kind of like larping but the anger i have against the people who've made this world the way it is is too much to feel like it should be real. i did a cursory glance at forums for assisted suicide and the amount of people instead of making me feel heard or like i found good information just made me angry. theres so many people killing themselvse because theyre hurting. IM DONE. capitalists should be feeling all this pain and all this hurt. not children in Palestine. not me, i guess. im so fucking sick of all of these useless SHITS talking about AI and the singularity and bullshit useless arguing about egregores or some dumb ass shit.
so fuck it! i'm going to be the first actual "effective altruist" on Planet Earth. At least that's kinda cool, right? and thinking about it, dedicating my whole life to communism isn't that bad. there's meaning in it. it's not like i can utilitarianistically justify causing myself to live in the streets (holy death from cold batman)
im sorry i trauma dumped on you the way i did. that was not justified. please forgive me.
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but from the perspective shown by the trolley problem or whatever, i am basically killing people when i choose to do something selfish instead of helping them not die. so the 35000 children dying every day are at least partially my fault. i could save dozens of them from early childhood diseases just by sending enough money for medicine to survive. i basically killed a dozen people today
on second thought this is probably true, but it also implies that everyone on the planet has probably "killed" someone at least a hundred times (especially if we count choosing to eat to not starve instead of giving) so im not sure if any of this matters. moral nihilism might be it at that point
im sorry i said the sociopath thing. i can see now i have no right to have said that
You're not the same poster as the person I used to say "That sounds like OCD, maybe see a therapist" to, right? Because, damn, the intensity of focus you have on this really reminds me of my own struggles with moral OCD.
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wow thanks guess ill go off myself or somethign i guess so i stop consuming resources
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i didn't want to live spending my entire life either worrying about not doing enough or forcing myself to give up everything i enjoy to do more. but i realize now that is counterrevolutionary and wrong. i am angry. i dont want to go into my emotions around this too much because it feels kind of like larping but the anger i have against the people who've made this world the way it is is too much to feel like it should be real. i did a cursory glance at forums for assisted suicide and the amount of people instead of making me feel heard or like i found good information just made me angry. theres so many people killing themselvse because theyre hurting. IM DONE. capitalists should be feeling all this pain and all this hurt. not children in Palestine. not me, i guess. im so fucking sick of all of these useless SHITS talking about AI and the singularity and bullshit useless arguing about egregores or some dumb ass shit.
so fuck it! i'm going to be the first actual "effective altruist" on Planet Earth. At least that's kinda cool, right? and thinking about it, dedicating my whole life to communism isn't that bad. there's meaning in it. it's not like i can utilitarianistically justify causing myself to live in the streets (holy death from cold batman)
im sorry i trauma dumped on you the way i did. that was not justified. please forgive me.
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