(TW: Mention of suicide.)
So I can just go the fuck to sleep. Idk. Maybe buy weed or something. My fucking chest feels like it’s full of concrete and my face is almost numb.
This is probably Day 0 of another extreme depression like last year when I (almost) tried to yeet myself.
It’s also my birthday today, I guess.
Either that or like, ordering DoorDash or shopping for a new pair of pants will distract me.
CashApp and Venmo are both allthetimesivedied.
I’m not gonna try and kill myself with Benedryl. I don’t want to see the Hat Man before I leave.
Bump. Sorry for the pain friend. I got paid today but unfortunately had to cash my check so I only have $1 I can cashapp you. Dollar tree has benedryl for cheap. However, I recommend picking up doxylamine for whatever reason you need an anti-histamine. I'm familiar with your post history, and my shoes look a tad different from yours but it seems like we've shared many of the same roads. Doxylamine (unisom sleep aid) is the heaviest anti-histamine. 1/2 of a 25mg pill is enough for most people. If you're going through any sort of withdrawal, a 1-1 and a half will do it. Don't go past 75mgs unless you want to see the hat man. Doxylamine is the shit though, far less side effects than benedryl for the amount of sedation it provides. Should be available at dollar tree or a store like that.
Also happy birthday! Mine was a couple weeks ago. Us February birthdays have to stick together, it's a real depressing time of year after the holidays. I hope you're doing well. Feel free to message me if you need somebody to chat with.
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I feel for you in the sleep issues though, in the past 5 or 6 nights I've slept twice. Idk what's going on, I have exams soon as well
DM me if paranoia or any other symptoms starts getting to be too much and you need someone who can relate
