Yeah comrade you are 100% right it is not normal to have suicidal thoughts and it’s not normal to feel like shit

The way I think of it is that depression is a terminal illness that might be curable with meds. For me it definitely was. I should also note that I found specifically a prescriber for medication, I don’t fuck with therapy. Sure there’s benefits to it or whatever but I don’t feel like sitting there talking about deep intimate details of my life with someone I don’t know. It’s literally answering one of those depression questionnaires which you’ve done a million times online im sure in person, they ask you a few questions, and they give you a prescription. First call takes an hour, follow ups are much faster if it’s working (15 mins). And like I said before now with telemedicine it’s easier than ever.