yeah I've found it's just so incredibly hard to make any lasting friendships since graduating highschool (and by extension of that, since being a kid). it's difficult to make friends and meet people in person unless you're being made to meet with a group on a daily or at least semi regular basis. which really sucks since I don't really go anywhere anymore. I find that anytime I speak to an acquaintance/stranger its only a superficial or transactional exchange, a very lonely culture to exist in.

I do love the friends I made in online spaces though, I feel more genuine connection in my interactions with them with those superficial and transactional elements less present. but I just wish there weren't so many barriers to meeting people and developing friendships in person.