I considered myself left but really only had liberals as an example of what left was. I've always held leftest views, but I kept them mostly to myself because liberals treat you like an extremist if you dared to be left of Obama.

After Trump won I became more and more annoyed with the way liberals treated the right with kid gloves. They just came across as wanting to lose. Like Adam Curtis said (paraphrasing)- "It's like they're afraid of power. You weren't allowed to have power"

Then I discovered breadtube and later the Chapotraphouse podcast and was like "holy shit, finally, people with teeth" then I learnt that liberals weren't left and it lead me to investigate more into what leftism actually is and it was like a light went off and everything in the world finally made sense.

These days I roll my eyes at breadtube and chapo but they were a helpful stepping stone to breaking through that fog that liberalism puts up.