It was long distance.... we would talk for like 8 hours a day sometimes. One time we talked for 14 hours out of the day. (Had phone sex a few times)
And then poof I long on today and she deleted her telegram account.
Right after giving me a huge list of book reccomendations and everything. To read and listen to
She did speak about getting worried we were getting romantic for each other too quickly and that we were getting too invested in each other. We had a connection she said but that I should focus on my drug treatment and her on her studies
I just don't know why she randomly deleted it... the only thing I can think is that she knew that's the only way she could stop us
Hurts guys it really really hurts. I'm about to cry
As much as it sucks, this will pass and it will be alright. While it is shitty to drop you nearly entirely cold, she has her reasons whatever they may be.
Just try as hard as you can to not take it personally, and avoid dwelling on it as much as you can. This is hard, but gets easier every day. Go easy on yourself, it's easy to be hyper critical of ourselves more than anyone else.
Those good times you had were real and meaningful regardless of the outcome. There will be more and it's pretty obvious to me that you are more than capable of loving and being loved.
I just think she was scared of getting too close... she hinted that she was scared of us getting too close. "we are too invested in each other she's afraid and that I should focus on my drug treatment. And she should focus on her studies.
We had some good times and some really romantic nights talking. Got intimate over the phone a couple times. That felt good, as lame as it is.
Thanks, I just need friends who can help me examine this and not go crazy