When I was a preteen on /pol/ there was a serious fetish for showing affection to your fellow posters, calling each other 'brother' and other cheesy shit. I thought when I was a stupid little fuck that these people really cared for me and wanted to know what I had to say, then I became a leftist and I never felt that again. I've never been part of any leftist community or project where I felt like people gave enough of a shit about me to forgive even a minor transgression. I feel similarly cold about these people who I am around. Its like in a heist movie where all the characters are brought together for a common goal and once they accomplish it they promise to never speak again. Anyone else feel this?
I got off really, really lucky and made some excellent friends on 4chan/8ch that ended up leftists like me, too. I don't know what I'd do or how socially lost I'd be without them. I tried joining the discord server for r/GenZommunist before ChapoChat launched hoping it'd be smaller and easier to integrate into than the CTH discord, get to know some leftists in my age group with similar situations, but it didn't really work out. Saw a few disagreements that didn't turn out very constructive and it left me feeling a little more depressed and unheard.
This place though, I'm really liking it so far. It's such a breath of fresh air seeing how the conversations in these comment chains progress amicably, as opposed to reddit where it's all about sticking it to someone or getting a lot of upvotes off a shitty, played out joke.