"you'd make a pretty girl"
Those really are the magic words that shattered the denial dam for me.
Because that was the major hang-up: "I wish I could be a girl, but I'd make such an ugly girl." Saying that to myself and not realizing that's literally gender dysphoria.
My wife and cousin telling me I make a very pretty girl in a genderbent instagram filter is all it took for a lifetime of denial to shatter.
Because for the first time in my life, I realized I could in fact be a pretty girl, and realizing that was possible made me want to cry.
edit: holy shit that was two years ago and now I'm finishing my first month of HRT. I've never been happier, not even close.
Because that was the major hang-up: “I wish I could be a girl, but I’d make such an ugly girl.” Saying that to myself and not realizing that’s literally gender dysphoria.
Ok wow so I am trans NB. Huh. I feel like an idiot, like I should have figured this out a long time ago. Like duh, that feeling is called gender dysphoria.
lol I spent almost 20 years trying to prove to myself that I was a boy. baby girl, boys don't have to do that.
Omg, I can look in the mirror and be like "I look too masculine, that's not me" and feel bad about it. I really just pushed these feelings out of my mind for so long? How?
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it was similar for me. once i saw the transition timeline of a woman who looked similar to me pre-transition and had absolutely amazing results, it hit me like a freight train. The idea that omg this could be me and i want that.
now i'm at the point were i don't really care if i end up as a pretty girl, being true to myself is all that matters because i can't crawl back into the closet, but i needed the realization that i could make this work.
im like a decade on it but i remember in highschool i had some girl friends that wanted to go shopping with me and they called it 'girls night' and my brain broke because it wasnt meant as an insult and they somehow knew (i mean i was always tiny and feminine so doesnt take a brain genius i guess :shrug-outta-hecks: )
of course the actual experience was dreadful i hated how many mirrors were in places back then, still kinda do but its more bearable now
Oh my god I am pretty happy with myself but the genderbent instagram filter made me look like Laura Prepon and she is soooo pretty. I still think about it!
:soviet-bottom: people discovering their true selves and finally becoming who they want to be just hits different
I’m pretty okay with being a guy, but I have dressed as a “bearded woman” for Halloween and it was a fun experience getting makeup on and getting dolled up by my wife, it was neat - and the attention from women was more than I was used to; on the other hand the way some men looked at me made my skin crawl.
