TW for suicide, and drugs.
Spare me the usual replies, please. I’ve heard them all.
I’m going to drop Creamsicle off at a friend’s house today.
“Yay!”
Then I’m probably going to acquire fentanyl somehow, and forget that I ever existed.
I’ve considered writing a letter to my friend, the one I’m always talking about. Creamsicle was originally supposed to be a birthday present for them, but they didn’t want him. I’d love for him to go live with them, but I don’t want them to be sad. I think I just want them to forget I ever existed. I know they probably won’t be too sad but I don’t know. I wish I could say goodbye.
Every single fucking day sucks. I am in the same exact hole today, on March 22nd, 2024, as I was on March 22nd, 2023, and on March 22nd, 2022. The only difference is I just keep getting slightly worse every year. Each winter hurts more than the last. More people stop talking to me and I smile less and life becomes increasingly more stupid and meaningless.
If you live in the US call 988 for mental health crisis support.
All I’ll say is it can get better, never believe it can’t happen. Anecdotally ketamine therapy helped me a lot. DM me if you just want someone to talk to but I probably can’t reply quickly
i've never heard anyone who had a good experience. only people where it did nothing, sicced the pigs on them, or saddled them with an involuntary hospital bill they couldn't afford
Yeah it’s annoying when people reply with that.