We have some storms rolling through tomorrow that have the potential to create isolated tornadoes, and I can't stop obsessing over it. Every time I see that we have thunderstorms in the forecast, I religiously check weather radars and reports throughout the day. This isn't something that's always been a fear of mine, I used to love hitting the bong and watching thunderstorms. But after having a close call last year while out delivering, and tornado sirens going off in the middle of the night a few weeks ago, I've developed quite the phobia.
Tornadoes aren't SUPER common where I live, but we had two yesterday and one a few weeks ago. All of them were super weak, and they petered out after a few miles. But the fear of a gargantuan EF-5 tearing down my apartment building is a constant fear of mine when storms are in the forecast.
I used to be afraid of this but at a certain point I was able to radically accept the inescapableness of the unlikely event and just enjoy the storm. Kind of hard to just whip that up for yourself though.
That's where I need to get. Tornadoes always made me nervous, but I used to get an excitement out of it.
Yeah, exactly. There's a fine line between nihilism and the acceptance of one's own mortality, but it's one of the few places where fear isn't.