• happyandhappy [she/her]
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    2 years ago

    Why the long period and the strict rules of masturbating to only 2D material? Because ethnographic fieldwork demands such consistency in order to yield results in the form of a ‘thick description’(Geertz, 1973) of the field. It was therefore imperative that I kept living within my own 2D world during this sexual fieldwork, without resorting to my usual 3D material, which I sometimes longed for. In that sense, I felt like I was in the physical field of another culture. I could relate to Malinowski, who during his time among the Tro- brianders often felt a ‘longing for civilization’(Malinowski, 1989: 148), or for his own culture as we would say today. 3D is my culture, just like milk and muesli is my breakfast, and not fish and miso soup, which you might be served for breakfast at a traditional ryokan in Japan. I can enjoy both, but I think I will never overcome my preference –I wonder if any of us truly can. And so, it was necessary to be diligent enough to abstain from the ‘milk and muesli’of porn during this experiment, in order to see what happened to my body on a long diet of ‘fish and miso soup’.

    kill him :fash-bash: :stalin-gun-1:

    • happyandhappy [she/her]
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      2 years ago

      The three months of masturbation to shota comics resulted in 30 entries in my notebook. Since this essay focuses on the method as such, I will only recount the main findings briefly and in regards to whether they helped me get closer to understanding the ex- perience of my research participants. Excerpt from my field diary after reading a dojinshi by Shigeru from the ‘circle’,or dojinshi group, Shonen Zoom:

      incredibly vile description of child pornography

      Started reading on the toilet: Boy who is staying with relatives happens to see his same-age friend masturbate. He can’t let go of this sight ... I continued in bed, arranged the pillows until I was in a comfortable position, a bit ceremonial. ... The boy is now observing Tokio-kun through the window, on the veranda, while jerking off. He slips on the snow and is dis- covered. Tokio-kun angry, but also excited even as he keeps repeating ‘I’m not homo!’. The boy who has admitted to everything has nothing to lose, so he throws himself over Tokio-kun and starts sniffing his cock and licking his smooth balls, and while waiting for the shot I came! (10 September 2021)

      thats it im not reading anymore kill him