Maybe you could tell. Maybe you couldn't. But I've been drunk since the 29th. I need to do better and I'm sorry. This is the only place I trust to confess. I need to get better. I need to be better. People rely on me and I'm letting them down.
I'm letting everyone down. Myself included. I hope I didn't say anything fucked up. Gosh I am so frustrated with myself. I want to be better but then the bottle calls my name. It says "hey tomorrow is tomorrow so let's get drunk today."
Lies lies all the pretty lies.
Frustration with yourself feels like a productive/useful emotion but I really can't conclude that it is. There are times when we're better and times when we're worse. What we need is a strategy for being better more often.
It's definitely worth paying attention and honesty to ourselves as a way of valuing ourselves.