I just need to vent a little bit and get some feedback from people outside of my friends and family. They love me unconditionally and I know they are never unwilling to listen, but I feel like a broken record lately and really can't find the motivation or make it better. I've really been feeling like an insufferable burden because of my pessimism and cynicism around this topic, so I figure why not unload it on some internet strangers and see what insight I can get from some like-minded people.
I work in big corpo and really really hate it on multiple levels. Everyone around me seems to either be blissfully ignorant or they have found a way to swallow their pride and just exist. I am having a lot of trouble doing that and it makes me feel like an unappreciative shithead. I'm in a good position, in a stable company with a lot of great perks and benefits, but I'm just not happy. I hate the industry, the culture, the work itself, but the people around me have been there for 10+ years, so there must be something I'm missing. Am I wrong for not being able to suck it up and cash my check?
having just gotten into a similar situation as my first ever job, i feel exactly like
. like, your exact situation is Waiting for me
but i think i've missed my window to apply for a phd this year, partially because of executive disfunction and a sudden funding issue, but partially because i was too busy trying to get/keep the bullshit job that i got explicitly to tide me over until my phd starts TO FUCKIGN WRITE MY PHD SHIT
A big company ain't a bad place to start your career tho, especially if its the industry you plan to stay in. It may start wearing on your eventually tho, so don't get to complacent. Get started on your thesis or w/e, you got this!