Lerios [hy/hym]

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Cake day: July 26th, 2020

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  • periods will get you asking shit like why is the great final battle between heaven and hell happening between my uterus and my fucking spine. like you two shouldn't even know each other you work in completely separate departments. how can you possibly have this much beef

    idk i just feel like I shouldn't be getting caught in the crossfire of this conflict. war crimes type biology








  • yeah genuinely - i feel like associating vodka with my mother/family events much more strongly than Cool Fun Parties definitely helped dull the lustre of going wild when i turned 18, and "underage" drinking made sure i knew my limits by the time i went out into the world on my own. its good for the soul and that's why the average amerikkkan is Like That 😔🙏


  • i open youtube to watch something specific and then it shows me dog so i click powercry-1 powercry-2

    but the upside is that the youtube algorithm sucks so i only watch like 2 dog videos before it starts showing me insufferable shit and i get back to the things i actually care about. genuinely so glad i don't have tiktok because i feel like tiktok would only give me good dog content and i'd be fucked.



  • things are kind of bad for me rn comrades so i haven't been around or keeping up with the world, but i'm glad you're all still here and shitposting. its nice to know there are sane people keeping an eye on things and writing critical analysis of shit, no matter how much i have to detatch stalin-heart

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    its not even a real fucking problem. i'm desperately trying to apply to phds to get the fuck out of this awful bullshit job, but i'm also... not. like, i keep looking at empty documents and NOT DOING THE SHIT I ENJOY BUT ALSO NOT DOING THE SHIT I NEED TO. WHICH???? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT. I'M NOT HAVING FUN OR BEING PRODUCTIVE. this is fucking tortuous. this could have been finished a fucking month ago but i just WON'T becuase the deadline isn't tomorrow so i'm not panicking yet, its just a steady constant dread that isn't giving me the adrenaline i need to ever get any work done but is ruining my days with the looming presence of inevitable failure and the fact that i am apparently just going to watch the oppurtunity to do what i love float past me without taking any action to grab it? despite giving up video games etc to devote months of my evenings to grabbing it??

    i've always been lazy but i can scrape everything together to a very high standard the day before it's due. this needs time for communication etc so it can't be done the day before the deadline. this is new and awful and also not even a real problem and i'm the only reason i'm being a failure rn so i can't even bitch about it. god i hate having a fucking job taking up half my day everyday.






  • Lerios [hy/hym]togamesWhat is Hexbear playing during the Holidays
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    27 days ago

    eh, they update things often enough that it doesn't get stale to me and i was never actually much good anyway, so its not like i see endgame content enough to get tired of it. tbh i'm a little disquieted by how much things have changed in the past 2/3 expansions that i missed, but i get that thats just me being a boomer.

    having played wow (sometimes obsessively) for 15 fucking years from launch when i was 6 years old, azeroth just feels like home to me. its a comfort and anxiety thing i guess. i hear the stormwind or teldrassil ambient music and i could fucking cry. i have no idea whether its a healthy coping mechanism, but being able to go to azeroth (nice, i know whats going on, people like me) after a day of real life (terrifying and depressing) is what got me through school and my home situation. a video game thats designed so that people can comfortably spend 12 hours a day in it doesn't necessarily have to be good, it just has to be better than the alternative of dealing with real life. very comfort blanket vibes ig, and i probably should have outgrown it. after covid isolation i thought i had outgrown it but evidently not


  • unironically yes. its comforting to be able to log on to a world i understand after each day of staying with family and having to endure the loud, non-optional festive bullshit. i just also know that i probably shouldn't be giving activision money and i should go outside or something instead of being a terminal G*mer again