Seriously, I'm generally a lurker because if I start engaging in stuff I get more and more angry. Like actual feeling it build up in your chest rage and fury. That either turns into bitter resentment that I can't treat these fucking people to the just desserts they have coming to them, or utter defeat and desperation to just fucking cease existing.
I've gone to a therapist on and off for my whole life (cptsd) but I've never had any response. I feel like I need goddamn brain damage to function in this hellscape. I don't know how y'all deal with chuds, libs, and just people in general without fighting back the urge to drive a truck through stuff.
Honestly: posting does help.
The point of Anarchism/Communism is not to develop an angry mindset through indulging in rage. You have to be able to see things as synthetic composites.
This is easy for natural objects, you know trees are made of wood and can’t hurt you, but gets much more difficult when you have to deal with a foreign consciousness (hologram) - you have to understand that people are massively complicated systems, and to fully resolve them you need a combination of empathy, intuition, and genuine goodwill. This will show you why people get pissed off and do dumb things.
What is incredible though, is that even this is not enough to forgive them. People are chaotic systems in a larger chaotic system, global capitalism. Understanding this system will show you why they’re all mad at each other.
To come to a fundamentally correct (Marxist) understanding of your own life inside the Imperial Core or periphery, you have to appreciate that everything you interacted with, everything you saw, everybody, was coloured in varying shades of fascism, and then try and mentally correct for that.
It’s fundamentally an ideology of both forgiveness and damnation. You have to appeal to the masses. You have to forgive them to do so.
Also, join a real org, go outside, guerrilla militancy requires enjoying fresh air, and it always helps if you’re in a good mood