ive been nicotine free for over a month but today after work i mindlessly went to the smoke shop and picked up a disposable. as soon as i took a couple hits and got that buzz the self hatred and regret started flowing

i feel like shit and im afraid that ill never beat this. i feel so weak. i feel like i have to tell my gf i did this but i feel so ashamed to do that. she was really important in encouraging me to quit and shes been so proud of me, i feel like i let her down.

i dont know what im looking for posting this here, i just needed to air out my thoughts in a supportive place

    • ZoomeristLeninist [they/them, she/her]M
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      2 years ago

      yeah, its rough. good luck with quitting next time you attempt comrade!

      i thought this time for sure id kick it, im promising myself throw this one out well before it dies. im def telling my gf, i just rlly dread it.

      thanks for the advice!