ive been nicotine free for over a month but today after work i mindlessly went to the smoke shop and picked up a disposable. as soon as i took a couple hits and got that buzz the self hatred and regret started flowing
i feel like shit and im afraid that ill never beat this. i feel so weak. i feel like i have to tell my gf i did this but i feel so ashamed to do that. she was really important in encouraging me to quit and shes been so proud of me, i feel like i let her down.
i dont know what im looking for posting this here, i just needed to air out my thoughts in a supportive place
it's not about perfect streaks, it's about positive trends. toss that disposable and keep it up.
This. If you keep beating yourself up about this, it subconsciously justifies slipping even more because "oh the streak is ruined" but that's not how it is. You've already been able to go over a month without smoking and you know you can do it again.
My homie, It is 10000% normal to relapse when ditching nicotine . Even after a lot longer then a month. Do not beat yourself up over it.
To this day I will grab a smoke when drinking. For the first year I cheated a smoke here and there when I was irritated or stressed. Even attempting and having any success is a great start to healthier life choices. Be proud of that.
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Remember this isn't a moral failure on your part, or even a failure to quit fully, just a temporary setback
I feel you comrade, I can't give up smoking at all, it's the one thing I absolutely need and I think I'm hopelessly addicted.
i feel that. i read the easy peasy method (https://easypeasymethod.org), a porn addiction book and applied it to nicotine. theres a book on nicotine called "the easy way to stop smoking" by allen carr, but i happened to find the porn one first and its free and pretty brainworm free. the guy even calls out the more toxic versions of porn cessation. the author does seem like semen retention but some of the claims of benefits dont have solid evidence.
good luck comrade! i find that having weed as a crutch helps. personally im a lot more comfortable having weed in moderation bc of the lesser bodily harm and easier to not abuse. ive abused weed before tho so :vivian-shrug: but im using it in a healthier way recently
I cheated a couple of times when I quit. I had to use the nicotine lozenges because I couldn't do it without tapering. Even then, I cheated a couple of times.
But, it's been seven years since I really quit. Haven't had the desire for a long time. After the first few months, the smell of stale smoke on other people smelled gross instead of tempting. These days, nicotine is just a nuisance. I smell it and it's just kinda gross, like it was before I started.
Everyone who quits relapses a couple of times, beats themselves up, and thinks they'll never make it until they finally do. I was smoking 1-2 packs of cigarettes a day for 10 years and generally have very little self control, and I could do it. Comrade, you can do this, you just have to keep trying and you'll get there.
EDIT: I read the Carr book. A lot of it was garbage, but it did help me flip the switch in my head from "Nicotine relieves stress" to "Nicotine withdrawal is what's causing the stress I feel, and using just temporarily relieves it."
You know how long you've been able to go without it now, and the bar has been set. Now go beat that record!
yeah, its rough. good luck with quitting next time you attempt comrade!
i thought this time for sure id kick it, im promising myself throw this one out well before it dies. im def telling my gf, i just rlly dread it.
thanks for the advice!
I quit smoking cigarettes about a decade ago. It's hard af, be nice to yourself. Just see this as a hiccup, it won't be a backside unless you allow it to be.
I still mess up sometimes when the days are really stressfull- then I get a reminder of how shitty nicotine feels and then toss out my cigs again.
Let your partner know, hold yourself accountable, and try to analyze what made you go to your cig in the first place.
Try to get a Welbutrin prescription. It instantly cuts cravings. I went from daily usage to nothing without any loss. Psilocybin also works wonders in that regard.
thanks for the advice comrade! i have considered welbutrin before but ill look more into it. ive never actually legit tried to treat my depression (other than looking inward n all that). ive done shrooms before but never with the mindset of confronting my nic addiction. they were a good time tho!
Welbutrin did nothing for my depression, but it made smoking totally unenjoyable. It was prescribed for that cessation itself. No physical need for it and no pleasure from it. Psilocybin has the same two effects, but with the added benefit of reforming the behaviours that put you in the state where you feel the need to smoke. It's a reset button.
i would legit vape throughout all my trips. and a lot of the time smoke weed on the comedown, prob not healthy
look at it this way: you've cut your smoking down to ~12 times a year(if you were to smoke once a month), so now focus on getting it lower.
