ive been nicotine free for over a month but today after work i mindlessly went to the smoke shop and picked up a disposable. as soon as i took a couple hits and got that buzz the self hatred and regret started flowing
i feel like shit and im afraid that ill never beat this. i feel so weak. i feel like i have to tell my gf i did this but i feel so ashamed to do that. she was really important in encouraging me to quit and shes been so proud of me, i feel like i let her down.
i dont know what im looking for posting this here, i just needed to air out my thoughts in a supportive place
i feel that. i read the easy peasy method (https://easypeasymethod.org), a porn addiction book and applied it to nicotine. theres a book on nicotine called "the easy way to stop smoking" by allen carr, but i happened to find the porn one first and its free and pretty brainworm free. the guy even calls out the more toxic versions of porn cessation. the author does seem like semen retention but some of the claims of benefits dont have solid evidence.
good luck comrade! i find that having weed as a crutch helps. personally im a lot more comfortable having weed in moderation bc of the lesser bodily harm and easier to not abuse. ive abused weed before tho so :vivian-shrug: but im using it in a healthier way recently