ive been nicotine free for over a month but today after work i mindlessly went to the smoke shop and picked up a disposable. as soon as i took a couple hits and got that buzz the self hatred and regret started flowing

i feel like shit and im afraid that ill never beat this. i feel so weak. i feel like i have to tell my gf i did this but i feel so ashamed to do that. she was really important in encouraging me to quit and shes been so proud of me, i feel like i let her down.

i dont know what im looking for posting this here, i just needed to air out my thoughts in a supportive place

  • ZoomeristLeninist [they/them, she/her]M
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    2 years ago

    thanks for the advice comrade! i have considered welbutrin before but ill look more into it. ive never actually legit tried to treat my depression (other than looking inward n all that). ive done shrooms before but never with the mindset of confronting my nic addiction. they were a good time tho!

    • happybadger [he/him]
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      2 years ago

      Welbutrin did nothing for my depression, but it made smoking totally unenjoyable. It was prescribed for that cessation itself. No physical need for it and no pleasure from it. Psilocybin has the same two effects, but with the added benefit of reforming the behaviours that put you in the state where you feel the need to smoke. It's a reset button.