ive been nicotine free for over a month but today after work i mindlessly went to the smoke shop and picked up a disposable. as soon as i took a couple hits and got that buzz the self hatred and regret started flowing

i feel like shit and im afraid that ill never beat this. i feel so weak. i feel like i have to tell my gf i did this but i feel so ashamed to do that. she was really important in encouraging me to quit and shes been so proud of me, i feel like i let her down.

i dont know what im looking for posting this here, i just needed to air out my thoughts in a supportive place

  • Upanotherday [he/him]
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    2 years ago

    My homie, It is 10000% normal to relapse when ditching nicotine . Even after a lot longer then a month. Do not beat yourself up over it.

    To this day I will grab a smoke when drinking. For the first year I cheated a smoke here and there when I was irritated or stressed. Even attempting and having any success is a great start to healthier life choices. Be proud of that.

    :arm-L: