ive been nicotine free for over a month but today after work i mindlessly went to the smoke shop and picked up a disposable. as soon as i took a couple hits and got that buzz the self hatred and regret started flowing
i feel like shit and im afraid that ill never beat this. i feel so weak. i feel like i have to tell my gf i did this but i feel so ashamed to do that. she was really important in encouraging me to quit and shes been so proud of me, i feel like i let her down.
i dont know what im looking for posting this here, i just needed to air out my thoughts in a supportive place
it's not about perfect streaks, it's about positive trends. toss that disposable and keep it up.
This. If you keep beating yourself up about this, it subconsciously justifies slipping even more because "oh the streak is ruined" but that's not how it is. You've already been able to go over a month without smoking and you know you can do it again.