ive been nicotine free for over a month but today after work i mindlessly went to the smoke shop and picked up a disposable. as soon as i took a couple hits and got that buzz the self hatred and regret started flowing

i feel like shit and im afraid that ill never beat this. i feel so weak. i feel like i have to tell my gf i did this but i feel so ashamed to do that. she was really important in encouraging me to quit and shes been so proud of me, i feel like i let her down.

i dont know what im looking for posting this here, i just needed to air out my thoughts in a supportive place

  • thisonethatone [he/him]
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    2 years ago

    I quit smoking cigarettes about a decade ago. It's hard af, be nice to yourself. Just see this as a hiccup, it won't be a backside unless you allow it to be.

    I still mess up sometimes when the days are really stressfull- then I get a reminder of how shitty nicotine feels and then toss out my cigs again.

    Let your partner know, hold yourself accountable, and try to analyze what made you go to your cig in the first place.