Not gonna call it a 'Check In Thread' this time on account of I'm up early af and the first thing I see is another mass shooting. Going fucking doomer mode now. I'm sure I'll calm down soon though. Happy to listen if you need it :stalin-heart:

  • MerryChristmas [any]
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    2 years ago

    I just finished a leave of absence from work and I've gotta say: three weeks is not enough time to fix a lifetime of mental illness. It's going to be fun having my bosses ask me why I haven't gotten better yet every time I slip up.

    Having said that, it was still the best thing I've done for myself in a while. I've been going to the store on my own, driving without the need to mentally prep myself, talking to strangers without panicking, getting repairs done at my apartment, doing necessary chores... I've felt like a real person and it makes me a little sad to see how much better my life could instantly become without my job. I'm hoping I can hold onto some of this progress while I try to plan my next move.

    On a 100% positive note, therapy has been going great! The therapist I'm working with now really gets me. I've done CBT countless times and it never did much for me, but her trauma-centered approach has me hitting new milestones all the time.